Four Years Gone

I missed this last year because I had already started work and had absolutely no time after work to visit Mom's grave. This year, I was lucky enough to still be on summer break so I had the kids decorate some succulents they picked out to bring to PoPo's grave. Lucas is coming up with more and more curious questions to ask me about all this. He knows his Mommy's Mommy is not here on earth and that she died. However, that does not stop all the "why?" questions. One thing that's hard for him to comprehend is that Jesus is in heaven and so is his grandma, but when will he see her again? How do you even start to explain that to a kid?! He does comprehend that it's sad to not have a Mommy though. He also does not want to die because he would miss his family.

 Diligently decorating their pots

 Bringing their hand picked succulents to PoPo's grave

 "That's your Mommy"

Mom's grandkids posing

As each year passes by, it gets "easier" simply because I'm getting used to Mom not being around. There is always a part of me that wishes she were here to experience all this. I can imagine how much joy it would be for her to interact with these two and just be a Grandma. Unfortunately, they will only be left with the stories I tell them about her.